Man... Im crying . I dont know why I allow him to do this to me... I use to be such a strong person, and when I wasnt I covered my weakness with hostility.

Ok... so hes leaving me and he has the nerve to say 'gina, dont say i never did you a favor...' when he says hes leaving... and then adds 'im sorry i dont want a relationship right now but until i do, ill just have to live with my decisions... and right now i want to be single. i love you, and if i was in a relationship it would be with you... but im just gonna be by myself for awhile...'

Man... what have I dont to deserve that... scratch that because Ive done quite alot... but not to him... never to him. I was actually good to him... and lets face it I have this thing about me thats like a carelessness to others feelings... man... i tell myself im not gonna cry... im not gonna cry... then  I cry... and now Im not... screw it...

I had a good week... lets think on the positive.